I don’t know why I’m writing this post

I really don’t have anything to say, but I still feel like letting things out. I now understand that after so much time of writing this Blog is really some sort of a home to me. Where I don’t need excuses or apologies, I’m just who I am.

I had a pretty shitty day today, talked to my ex and made sure she’s suffering. That’s so unlike me, but it just shows me how deeply this hurt me. By the way, those of you who comment here, you are welcomed, but remember that you’re guests in my house so act accordingly.

So most of the day just went by with that “half asleep” feeling you have when you haven’t really coped with something completely. I tried working a bit to take my mind off of things but that only helped a little. Tomorrow I’m going to be at school all day so maybe that will help as well.

The way I know myself it will take me the rest of the week to fully get back to myself and then all that will be left are the jaded pain and hurt. At least if I had some spare money I could go on some shopping spree or catch a movie to get my mind of this, but instead I’m stuck at home in front of the computer, which lately seems like my best friend.

I just finished watching another episode of Californication where Hank Muddy fucks every girl on the planet, can’t say it didn’t annoy me a bit. Oh I almost forgot, I met with Igal Pines today and we had a really great chat for around 2 hours, at least that was fun – kind of got my mind off shit.

So……………………what’s up with you guys? anything new? anything you care to talk about?

Good night.