What the fuck’s wrong with me

May 5, 2010

This is like the 6th night in a row I can’t fall asleep. It’s always the same pattern. I try to go to sleep at around 2 a.m. at 3 a.m. I realize I can’t sleep so I wake up and work a little bit on my PC, then go back to sleep at 3:30 [...]

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This is too hard

May 3, 2010

I know I’m whining like a sobbing bitch but I don’t care. My affiliate commissions where just cut in half, my landlord is raising my rent which means that I will probably have to move for the 8th time in 10 years, I have no money or steady income. I just don’t see how I [...]

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Failed…..again

April 30, 2010

I tried hitting on this cute girl at the bar today. I have my own “Beigel method” for this, it’s sort of a very direct method. I used to think it worked very well but now I’m not so sure. She was really cute, and sexy this girl. So I came up to her, tried [...]

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Thoughts are haunting me again…

April 25, 2010

It’s happening again. I can’t fall asleep. It’s 2 a.m. and all I can think about is where is the money going to come from and how am I going to make it through next month. But I’ve already gotten used to this, and I will pummel through this. I have to, there’s no other [...]

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I saw her today

April 23, 2010

I saw her today. My ex. I was getting up from a birthday party on Dizingoff st. and as I crossed the road I noticed her on the other side with her apparently new boyfriend. They were holding hands, she seemed happy, she was smiling and radiant like I remembered her. They didn’t see me, [...]

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The Holocaust Memorial Day

April 11, 2010

I just saw “Life is beautiful”. An Amazing movie. It’s hard to imagine. The holocaust you know. Even now, 66 years after it has ended it still can’t be perceived. I’ve been wanting to see this movie ever since 1999 when during my army training they showed it to us, but I was so exhausted [...]

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Me? I dream of 6 impossible things by six in the morning

April 9, 2010

Dare to dream, don”t stay fixated in the ordinarity of everyday life. There isn’t even such a word as ordinarity, but I don’t care – I do it my way. Don’t just follow, make your own way, you don’t have to lead, you don’t have to even be noticed, just make sure that in your [...]

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Nervous breakdown number who’s counting…

April 6, 2010

There it goes again, another sort of breakdown. It happened today, when I realized I’m not sure how I’m going to make it through the next month. Also other depressing thoughts such as “what you’re currently working on won’t catch on” and “it’s been over a year and you’re still in the same spot” came [...]

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In the mood for writing (but don’t know what about…)

April 4, 2010

It’s Friday, I came back early from this Hip-Hop party, it had great music but got too crowded at some point so I decided to leave. Oh…and it was also filled with 20 year olds that are just discovering the “Art of Going Out”. I’ve been working really hard lately and loving every minute of [...]

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This one’s for my mom

March 31, 2010

This is my Mom. Here name is Noami. She’s probably the most affectionate person in the whole world, and I’m writing this because like many of us, I’m too embarrassed to let her know that by actually telling her. I was just about to fall asleep when I started thinking about my family today, I [...]

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